Well...wasn't horrible. Wasn't great. According to the doctor (not my doctor) there is a definite gestational? in uterine? pregnancy present. So, that's good. The yoke sac was apparent. According to my videographer and friend who went with me, there was a definite spark of a fetus. I'm not convinced. I have to squint too hard to tell. Maybe my doctor is right in saying I worry too much. But, when YouTube (okay, I know, not a reliable source by any standards) but when YouTube shows six week six day ultra sounds and they can hear/see a heartbeat....when my friend had an earlier ultrasound than this and could see/hear heartbeat....and then I have mine and the doctor says it's too early to see/hear heartbeat and we do not see nor hear.... yes, I'm worried. Hmmm.... So, keeping hopes up and trying to be positive. Wishing for a future soon ultrasound in a few weeks and knowing I have to wait until I return from my five week trip. In all my worryness, I had forgotten to go down to labs and get my blood type tested again. So, after driving home, I drove back, and they still had orders for blood work up prior to just the blood typing, ie: all the pregnancy runs. So, I took advantage of the system and had them take blood to test HCG levels. Yes, yet another way I can obsess over if things seem to be progressing like I hope. I guess I should be more excited/positive about today's post, but, I think I'm still too glum? to be on the free and clear. I'm just going to have to have faith that the baby inside of me will grow and grow and the heartbeat will come in time. Why now, did the doctor measure the embryo at 1 mm, when, if you do your research, you will find that between 6-8 weeks, the embryo is 5-8mm. Okay now, you can see why I can't just think things are great. Time will tell...
Still holding onto hope...
I thought he said it wasn't even one centimeter yet; but I thought it was more than one millimeter. At any rate, keep thinking positive. You did see the yolk sac and it's just such a tiny embryo now; it will grow quickly. Love you. Glad I could be there with you today!
ReplyDeleteI know these things sound discouraging right now, but keep holding onto that hope! I definitely have faith that this will work out for you, resulting in a little bundle of joy! Do you plan to find the sex or do you want to be surprised? <3
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Well, as you've seen so far, I can't even let HCG levels be a surprise! I am on a need to know basis, and right now, I need to know everything! So yes, I will definitely be finding out. :) In approximately 10 weeks :)
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